I am finding that one of the hardest things about being in the States, but here in Florida, in Orlando, is the fact that I am somewhat unknown to people here. Yes, I know a lot of people, but none of them know me WELL, none of them are really close friends. And that is hard, hard not to really feel known, at least by anyone present in flesh and bone.
I have good friends just a call away, but somehow that feels different. I can't jump in the car or on the metro to go see them, or at least not with frequency nor in any kind of quick time frame. I can't just stop by.
Yes, the Lord is VERY present and, yes, this is a great time to draw near to him, but he has created us to be known and to be in relationships. So, when I am tired, a bit emotional, and haven't had much time to process life, I miss my good friends and I long to be married, to have someone who more or less goes where I go (and I with him), someone who when I am a bit strange or emotional might get frustrated with me, but also loves me and can speak truth and grace to me, someone who moves when I move and who knows my past and present and I his....
I just talked to one of my roommates about this, some of the things that at time are less than pleasant sides of singleness.
