chocolate

hmm... it is interesting. (by the way, this is completely random.) i just walked into the kitchen to grab a square of dark chocolate and to make some noodles (since i'm randomly hungry again - lunch here is generally around 2 or 3pm and it is now almost 5pm, so think of 2pm your time). anyway, as i grabbed the couple squares of chocolate i thought, "gosh, i never eat this much chocolate, but somehow as of late i've been craving it from time to time. strange. oh yeah, i guess i did just start my period. i guess chocolate cravings do tend to come then. interesting."

so that's my great observation. there are many other things associated with one's monthly period that are true of mine, chocolate generally isn't one of them (although apparently this month it is). it is odd that when i was little i LOVED chocolate and that now, while i like it, i don't tend to prefer it - only once in awhile. i tend to prefer fruit if i want something sweet. and, often times, if i do crave chocolate, i either don't have any or try to satisfy my craving with chocolate tea (i think i have both black tea and green tea with some sort of chocolate added - loose tea of course, thanks to the local "The Tea Shop." :-)

It just occurred to me why I've been in a little bit of a funk the past couple days and a bit more easily perturbed and overwhelmed than normal. My period, or regla, is just around the corner. Oh the joys of being a woman. At least I can see that, no I am not depressed or a complete mess. I can stop asking, "What is wrong with me? Why do I get so upset about the tiniest of things?" Obviously it doesn't justify my being mean or rude, but it gives an explanation of why I feel as I do, which somehow makes me put everything back into perspective and to not let it affect me as much. I just know that it will last about a few days to a week, then my regla will come and all will return to normal. So if over the next few days I become really emotional at the drop of a pin, it will have some explanation.

And, I guess as I write this, that reality is that my emotions are only exaggerated, so sometimes it's actually a good thing to get to the root of what is going on inside me but that would normally NOT come out. Just like being overseas. :-) Hmmm...