I've been a bit melancholy the past few days, on and off. That and happy. Yesterday my mood was greatly affected by how I felt physically - yuck. I'm quite sure of the origin of my illness, just a runny nose and congestion, but somehow I had convinced myself that it was from the gross blue mold I found growing on my pata de jamón. I did some research via the worldwide web and seem to have some evidence that (1) this doesn't deem the ham leg inedible, in fact my information from various sources seems to think you just need to wash it off, I went for cutting it all off plus enough underneath that any remaining spore roots would be gone as well. gross, yes. It also gave some fairly vague information that (2) yes, this mold could have been inadvertently breathed in by me, the one trying to save the ham leg and remove all the mold while talking to my brother on the phone, and thus causing me flu/cold-like symptoms that have affected my respiratory system. I have no idea if this is true or not, but it is a good theory. But I digress...So, I've been thinking about a million and one things that have to do with my future, what I desire in life & possible futures, and desiring to have someone around to share that with, if it be God's will... and yet somewhat happy and content with where I am, depending on the time, day, and state of my emotions.
Last night a gal working in an Eastern European country showed up to spend a few days here while she works out visa problems with the embassy of her host country. I am fairly agotada and just happen to have a fairly busy few days. This week two close friends here (one today, one two days ago) have had a grandma pass away and it seems like everyone around me is either in crisis or experiencing great loss or both. My life is fine, but the weight of those around me has been weighing on me a bit. So... I made the bed, got her settled, made tea, oatmeal, coffee, etc., and got her directions and such to find her way to the embassy and everything else she needs. And then my roommate shows up and offers to take her around with her to do a few errands, to go to lunch, and just to hang out. WOW!
It just reminded me of (1) that while I may long for a life-mate that the Lord has put people right along side me and (2) how much I appreciate my roommate and having a roommate period. It's true that all people are messy at times, but it is also true that it is nice to have company along for the ride and to have people to pick up your slack or what you don't have to give at times.
I just watched a great Clive Owen film, The Boys Are Back, and was yet again reminded of this truth. Presently I am basking in the gracious and goodness of God's provision for me in countless ways. It's a good place to be. And it's also not bad that I have Carla Bruni playing in the background. :-)
